Getting Out of My Own Head

You ever have those moments where you got so wrapped up in your head and own thoughts you lost sight of everything else? Sometimes, as someone with severe anxiety, I can get wrapped up in my own thoughts. What happens is I hyper-fixate on something. I travel down these rabbit holes of endless ‘what if’Continue reading “Getting Out of My Own Head”

Three Things Being Bipolar Taught Me.

At this point, it is no surpise for me to tell you that I’m bipolar. I’m open about my diagnosis because it is just a much a part of who I am as the color of my eyes. Would I choose to be bipolar if I had the option? Probably not, but that doesn’t meanContinue reading “Three Things Being Bipolar Taught Me.”

To My Wife, From Your Bipolar Husband

To my wife, My beautiful wife. You never cease to amaze me. Not only are you beautiful, but you’re so incredibly smart. You’re talented at whatever you want to do, you have so much potential. Speaking of potential, that’s all I offered you when we met. All I had was the shell of a manContinue reading “To My Wife, From Your Bipolar Husband”

What It’s Like to Have a Panic Attack

I thought hard about what I wanted to write this week. It wasn’t until I was on the verge of a panic attack last night that I realized I wanted to give people some insight into what it is like to have a panic attack. I understand this is a hard topic for some peopleContinue reading “What It’s Like to Have a Panic Attack”

Writing Mental Illness

I often hear about writers struggling to write characters with mental illness, because they want to accurately portray mental illness without it being offensive. I believe that there should be more mental illness in literature and the arts because it helps to raise awareness. So, I have put together the following list as a beginner’sContinue reading “Writing Mental Illness”

Stunt Driver

Being bipolar is kind of like being a stunt driver. It’s a daring ride. Both dangerous and exhilarating, you can’t help but to want more. So how exactly is being bipolar like being a stunt driver? Well, I’m glad you asked. When mania hits, it’s like a stunt driver hitting the ramp to jump overContinue reading “Stunt Driver”

It’s Been a While

So my last post detailed how I had gone on a spiral these last few weeks. I was having panic attacks two or three times a day. Panic attacks where I would stiffen and couldn’t breathe. I gasped for air and clenched my fist tight, digging my nails into my palms. Things were getting badContinue reading “It’s Been a While”

Having So Much to Do, but No Motivation to Do It.

A few weeks ago, I was on top of the world. I built this site, was writing every day, reading two to three books a week, and just being productive. My first newsletter was written, and I started tracking social media metrics. I was just having fun and loving being alive. Now, I find myselfContinue reading “Having So Much to Do, but No Motivation to Do It.”